Thursday, November 30, 2006

The Final Chapter

Well its official . My dad passed away on Tuesday night November 28th .
A heartfelt thank you to all who prayed for him. I came home early that evening to do some accounting work for the restaurant at home. I got a text from Wes who encourange me not to sit there, but to meet him at the half way return point for his run back home.
I said yea and dragged my sorry but off the couch and the puter and changed out of my work clothes . It was a strange night out but the running conditions were awesome !!! Not to hot a little cool but good . The sky was clear and thoughts of my Dad were with me.
While I was on my was to meet Wes, I was talking to my Dad ,and told him that I did not want him to suffer ! I was proud of him and I know he was strong and his mind still healthy. Which really sucks to see some you love ,still with such a good mind beign taken right infront of you by Cancer.
Especially Lung Cancer. It was only diagnosed 5 weeks ago after his biopasy. It is one of the most aggressive types a Cancer you can get. He is one of the few unfortunate people to get asbestos exposure and poisioning while working. Its awful but my Dad was a brave person.
I meet Wes finished my run3 miles. With little knee pain yea!!!

I got the dreaded phone call later that evening that my Dad had left his shell of a body and his spirit was free !! His pain was no longer. He can breath !
I will miss him! :(

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Starting Over

Okay since I last had time to blog , I was drowning in my sorrow for my father who is ill.
My dear husband allowed me sometime away to go help my Mom and my sister.
My dad is improving slowly so keep those prayers coming . They are helping I am sure !
The Cancer he has still has not be addressed yet but I am hoping we can try and treat it soon.
Thats right be positive!!!!!
I went to Alabama on Tuesday flew in that morning went straight to the hospital ,and that continued till Thursday afternoon. I departed for the Atl needless to say, flying into the night and landing in the drive way about 10pm. I went straight upstairs to unpack and repack to travel to Raleigh on Fri am. My oldest son had a soccer tournament. So back in the car early Friday morning to travel another 8 hrs in the car . Yes I arrived , exhausted and ready to watch a weekend of Soccer. Not a real ideal place to run here at the hotel . But i was determined to do something for myself this weekend.

When we got back from the soccer fields on Saturday evening I did it . I on my own decided to go to the exercise room . I was dissapointed I really wanted to run by there was not treadmill insight.
The stair master was broke. I thought oh sh** this is not cool . I really want to start my training back . I have been off for 6 weeks now because of the knee and family crisis.

AH ha they have a stationery bike !!! I will ride this . It was great !!!! I suprised myself and rode the bike for 30 minutes with just a little knee pain and the distance was 5miles. I thought to myself she's coming back !!!!! Yeah .

Friday, November 10, 2006

A daughters love for her father

I got tragic news yesterday about my fathers condition. He was admitted into the hospital 19 days ago to under go biopsay . Unfortunatley my mom was told yesterday that my father cancer he has is wide spreading and has limited time left on this planet . He has pretty much lapsed into a drug state acoma and will soon leave this earth . The following
words in Christina Augilera pretty much some up how I feel.

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw you face
You told me how proud you were
But I walked away
If I only knew then what I know today
I WOULD HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS
I WOULD TAKE YOUR PAIN AWAY
THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU'VE DONE
FORGIVE ALL YOUR MISTAKES.
THERE NOTHING I WOULDNT DO
TO HEAR YOUR VOICE AGAIN
SOMETIMES I WANNA CALL YOU
BUT I KNOW YOU WON'T BE THERE
SOME DAYS I FEEL BROKE INSIDE
BUT I WON'T ADMIT
SOMETIMES I WANNA HIDE
CAUSE ITS YOU I MISS
AND ITS SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE
WHEN IT COMES TO THIS
WOULD YOU TELL ME I WAS WRONG
WOULD YOU HELP ME UNDERSTAND
ARE LOOKIN DOWN UPON ME
ARE YOU PROUD OF WHO I AM
THERES NOTHING I WOULDN'T DO
TO HAVE JUST ONE MORE CHANCE
TO LOOK INTO YOUR EYES
AND SEE YOU LOOKING BACK

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Hoorah No Surgery

I enter the Doctors office, sign in, and oh yes, I have to give up that co pay before you see the Dr. So I sit and wait and wait. By the way, my appointment was for 2:oopm. I got in to see him at 3:00. Ok Dr, make it quick ,I have a kid to pick up in 30 min. Make a long story short I have no torn anything. He fitted me with a knee brace stablizer ,and told me you wear it during any physical activity ,and take my 800 mg of motrin 3 times a day Ice it. Come back in two weeks. And hopefully the tenderness an pain Im havin will go away. So thats it nothing exciting.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Waiting my MRI Results

I have enjoyed running since I started about 4 months ago. I accomplished my first 5k and my first 10 k. We have pics to prove that for all the non belivers out there!
I am sorry to say that I havent been able to run since I did my first 10k. :( Ive torn something in my left knee. Actually its a old injury from playing soccer in the yard with the kids . Unfortunatley the large kid tripped me to get the ball. I had my MRI on Monday and prior to that my Doc thinks I might have a cartilidge tear. We wont know till tomorrow . I have a appointment with the Ortho to give me my results. I am praying that I can continue to train to do the Half Marathon in March with Wes . We are suppose to run another 5k on thankgiving morning and I think the whole faimly is going to do this one. I will walk with my youngest if I have to. Till tomorrow peace!

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Hello, World

Testing, one, two, three.